So we got a phone call on Tuesday from Di. She said the tissue removed during Steve's surgery had been analysed and she had some results for us.
Out of the 29 lymph nodes removed, 3 are cancerous. This means there's a chance of some evil little cancer cells still floating about in Steve's body - this means chemo.
We were told the chances of chemo were slim because Steve's operation was the most drastic that could have been done, so it was likely all the cancer would be taken out. We were told back in July that the scans showed the cancer hadn't spread to any lymph nodes - I've since been told that there would be no way of knowing this until the histology was back from the operation.
She said it was unlikely that any cancer had been left behind as the whole tumour was removed, but chemo would assure that any stray cells would be destroyed.
We have an appointment in about 2 weeks when we'll find out the plan for chemo. Until then all we know is that it will be happening.
We both understand this and in the long run I'm sure we'll be thankful for it. But we'd been so convinced that this would all be over after the operation that we can't help feeling a bit let down and wounded by this news.
Steve's aim had been to reach the end of the 6-8 week recovery period from the surgery and get on with his life. Back to work, back to socialising, back to normality. Now we'd been given at least an extra 6 months on top of that. This seems so far away that we can't even see it. It feels like it's never ending and it's only been 3 months since we first went into hospital after the Isle of Wight Festival.
Just a bit of a rant really! This has been such a tough journey and I've felt so helpless all the way. All I want to do is take it all away from him and make this all go away and there's nothing I can do to make that happen.
I do understand it's for the best - the way I see it, doing chemo now means he hopefully won't have to go through any of this again in the future. Just can't help feeling a bit deflated by it all.
If anyone has any advice or words of wisdom they can offer, please do! Thank you.
Lots of love Xx
2 comments:
Hi Gina & Steve,
Wendy and I know what ur both going through only to well! Grasp the chemo treatments, diarise,and tick them off one by one.Chemo will be over before you know it. Steve write a blog or a book a blog helped me immensly.
http://livingwithbowelcancer.blogspot.co.uk/
Regards John & Wendy
Thank you so much, means a lot. Steve is really glad I've done this but doesn't really fancy doing it himself - this is my outlet but I think I'm his if that makes sense?!
We've got our heads around it now and we're ready, bring on the chemo and getting this horrible thing out of him for good! :)
Love to you both. Xx
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