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Saturday 22 August 2015

A Meeting With Macmillan

Steve has been signed off work for a few weeks and he's needed it.

In the past 3-4 weeks, I can remember two days where he hasn't needed to go to bed by around 3pm due to the excruciating pain he's been experiencing. It really breaks my heart.

Every morning, I watch my husband wincing in pain. His entire body hurts. I watch him carefully counting out his drugs... 2 x Oxycontin Prolonged Release, 2 x Oxycontin Immediate Release, 1 x Dicloflenac, 1 x Citalopram, 4 x Gabapentin, 1 x Omeprazole.

In the afternoon, I watch him take some more, and again in the evening, except this time with a couple of Amitriptyline and a Diazepam added into the mix.



So why, every day, am I still watching him doubled over in pain, unable to speak, unable to stand, unable to hold his daughter, gasping for breath because he is almost crippled from the pain?

We scheduled a meeting with Macmillan to discuss this. Steve has been to see them a few times in the past and they've always been fantastic with ensuring he's on the right medication and trying to make him as comfortable as possible.

I did my research beforehand. I was sure there must be something alternative or additional to painkillers, something longer lasting and more hardcore.

I found some information on epidurals, pain blocks, injections, TENS machines, physiotherapy.

When the keyworker from Macmillan arrived and asked how things were, Steve did his usual "not too bad thanks" - what is it with this stubborn husband of mine that prevents him from being truthful about the way he's feeling?!

I explained that he spends every day in agony. I explained my frustration that he is almost rattling with drugs yet remains in so much pain. I told her that surely, with the amount of drugs he takes, he should be pain free 100% of the time, and that he is far from this.

She was horrified, and agreed something needed to be done. She doesn't specialise in this area but was able to refer us immediately to the person at our Macmillan clinic who does.

We had a meeting with a consultant the following week. We discussed where his pain was, which drugs appeared to help and which did not, and ultimately concluded that Steve already takes the highest dosage allowed of the majority of his current medication so from a tablet point of view, not much more could be done. She increased two of them very slightly, but over the coming days it became evident that this had very little effect, if any.

Yesterday, a physiotherapist came to the house, but she didn't do an awful lot and seemed confused as to what was causing the pain.

She did bring a TENS machine however. We tried that out today and, although early days, it seems to be working. He is still not even close to pain free, but we did notice an improvement and we are grateful for any amount of relief Steve gets.

We are now waiting on CT scan results and then it looks as though the next trial treatment will be underway.

Please keep everything crossed for us and keep us in your thoughts.

Thank you for reading! :)

Lots of love, Gina Xx

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Gina..you are such a lovely young lady...I have followed you and been fb friends with you for a long time even though we have never met....So so sorry to hear about all the bad stuff that is happening atm... you are such an amazing wife to steve and mother to Esme...juggling everything is not easy but you are doing a fabulous job !! If you ever want to chat fb us ..If there is anything at all that we can do to help, we will..if you ever do a charity auction, we will donate..big hugs to all xxx

Unknown said...

Susan I've just seen your comment, thank you so much lovely, it means a lot xxx