I've been putting off writing this post as I feel like it would be far too emotionally draining to fully relive the events of the past few weeks, so I thought I'd do a brief post explaining some of what's gone on.
In a nutshell, there have been three emergency call-outs, several changes in drugs and dosages, two panic attacks, a chest infection, radiotherapy, countless entire days spent in bed due to severe pain and exhaustion, a four night stay in a hospice, one or two heated discussions with medical professionals, some pretty odd conversations sparked by mild hallucinations (a side effect of one of the drugs), a syringe driver, some very scary and surreal conversations between myself and consultants, some family members rushing down to visit after a bad turn, a reclining chair and wheelchair being delivered, daily visits from nurses and/or doctors, and, needless to say, some tears.
I don't want to go into the things I was told by the consultants as I find it all too upsetting and scarily real.
Steve's pain still isn't close to be "under control" and at the moment he's extremely drowsy most of the time, too.
Emotionally, we're doing okay at the moment - I thank our lucky stars that we have that gorgeous little girl to keep us entertained and occupied every day. She really does light up our lives and keep us going. We have so much fun with her and she keeps us distracted.
I'm going to leave it there as I don't want to go into detail just yet, but I want to thank everyone for the continued love and support. We have some truly incredible friends and family and have been totally blown away by everyone's kindness. It means the world.
Love, Gina xx
